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All life lived with confidence, that all free it on quality is not so good, and sometimes even is harmful. Accordingly in treatment of any sores was engaged in paid clinics … and here last events have forced to doubt, that paid clinics panacea and good.

It was required to me to hand over analyses on one sore, clear business by existing tradition поперся in paid clinic, what quickly and qualitatively took analyses and as have diagnosed. Has handed over analyses, has waited pair of days. I come behind results to clinic, the doctor (which it is attributed to me) informs, that there are two news good and bad. Good, that on that, on what handed over analyses in any form at me it is not revealed. Bad, that in one of the handed over analyses is revealed, that is at me траблы with kidneys. I ask what now to do, how to be treated? Answers, that here pay eighteen косарей in cash desk and there will be to you a treatment by a course of pricks of antibiotics (!) And tablets. I in a shock, not a fig to itself … antibiotics and eighteen thousand roubles. Мда …. Was upset, has gone home, having taken at the doctor for memory the analyses. Has asked to tell parents to their other doctor that would confirm the diagnosis. In couple of days have called, have told, that with such analyses (which in itself as it was found out, are issued incorrectly) very strange, that to me in total figure of cost of treatment have not added still zeroes. Поскромничали to see. I ask what now to do, how to be treated?

It is said that would go to free clinic and handed over repeatedly because if and is at I rumple such sore, it is very strange, that have not made ultrasonic and other analyses, and judged all on two and that taken not clearly as. The type, that doctor who all this business tookthe shaman and approximately has defined at once, that I am strongly sick, and it is time to me to prick antibiotics. The Eye-diamond, an eye-X-ray and in general all sees, that at I rumple is created without analyses. Clear business, such basically should not be, and this doctor - the charlatan, in a word.

H-nja the question, has gone to the free clinic attributed to our HIGH SCHOOL. Has talked to other doctor, he and says to me, that a sore on which I handed over analyses on 88 % at me is (after survey and on the basis of its experience!) … I show to it, that to me have written in that clinic, I tell, how took analyses. He smiles, says, that so for a long time already do nothing and in general, such analyses a sore will not reveal. As a result the doctor подлатал my health, has removed that is necessary, has explained, what medicines actually are necessary to me (has explained all free of charge!). Now I receive medical treatment, it is happy, disturbs nothing and what antibiotics!

But the history on it does not come to an end, as it would be desirable. Has received today analyses on those траблы which according to the doctor in paid clinic at me are. Also it appears, that good analyses at me. In the plan? There is at me nothing such in general for what wished me to treat in paid clinic, and something that have written cheap divorce on money. How many from the client-loha you will cut down, so much in a pocket and will settle …

And so, how the person with the regalia, any ranks medical can, the expert in the area, fulfilled not one year to sign me on antibiotics absolutely not necessary to me and course of treatment of what at me in general is not present?! That is a Hippocratic Oath a hogwash in comparison with desire to cut down grandmas from the patient-loha? The pancake, here does not keep within in any way at me it in a head, yes I cry money for completely not budgetary analyses, expecting result, instead of formal reply any there from which then other doctors are spat and say, that it is cheap divorce on money. Here also believe that the paid medicine is more qualitative free …

 

I now you will ask to make for me small such favour. Take the handle and a sheet of paper. Will draw a sinusoid (the schedule representing waves) along any axis drawn by you … Perfectly, now draw again it so, that it gradually would fade, that is aspired to an axis or each subsequent wave was less previous. Perfectly, just you have drawn the schedule of relations, where extrema (the maximum and minimum points on the sinusoidal schedule) are peaks of your relations. Above - "good", below – "bad". Now on this schedule from the bottom point "bad", draw a line to an axis is that point which is called “The End” or the termination of relations, that is - parting.

Sooner or later in any relations happens “The End”. Unfortunately, practically always The End comes to some extent suddenly and in practically in any relations (I exclude meaningly, have got married and lived long and happily … here a separate song). Обиднее everything when “The End” it is reached when the requirement for second half is especially important when all flies to hell and all world against you, when the support point is necessary what not to fall … Here the significant other and speaks to you “The End”. I think, in this case to make comments there is nothing, everyone already has had time to go through such a minimum once.

Very strange supervision, but during the moments “The End’а” people like to do beautiful acts. Meaning that usually is better in the course of relations two brightest moments, actually “Begin” and “The End” are remembered. Accordingly, in the beginning of relations do something such what to like the person and to win it, and in the end do, something such remembered, that would remember. To leave a trace in another's life.

Let's tell, as examples the first, that comes to mind, to say goodbye on that place where have got acquainted, last time to communicate to that person who has reduced together … or in any other beautiful place, having to a pacification. It is not interesting to write, about small личностые Armageddons when occurs mutual ит sharp посылание “on йух”, it is better about the most silent described above and I will stop.

In itself it is amusing, as by own experience I can assert, that more often for last conversation people choose three places: park, kitchen, at the underground. Most likely, it связанно with possibility of immediate leaving from a place of events as all once heard about that people would run up on joint rest lasting many days (till the end of rest slept on different beds), in other cases was banal runaway. To talk and leave. On kitchen over tea, in park on a shop at the underground … at the underground. Has told the last "forgive", it was rose/was developed and has left … Has crossed out the next stage in a life writing-book. Such hasty flight is defensible that it is very heavy to see consequences of the actions, tears, a pain, groans, questions. It would be less desirable to see, how to which that person loved/loved you do painfully.

On the other hand, when people long enough together (from a year) to leave so quickly hardly it turns out. When the person comes and says to me, that here after one and a half years of a joint life we have run up for one moment, the first that I ask always, the reason … and already then I continue conversation. If the reason really serious, say, change or something in this spirit sharp as blow by a sickle on eggs, conversation and the help makes sense. If as a result of quarrel it is delirium because swearing people seldom watch the words and manage such affairs to do, what then to apologise it is necessary almost for the rest of the life. And so, if people have dispersed at the moment of quarrel it is necessary to be developed and leave there and then, having stopped conversation … in the end having thrown:

- In a week come, we will talk.

And after all factor really solving here time because now the person bears such wild rubbish about the significant other, let is better than emotion поостынут then we will talk.

Usually in couple of days after parting you start to miss on the person, and here then people and try to return all back, at all forgetting that if to drive in nails, and then them to pull out scars all the same remain. You get phone, you start to attack calls and смсками, you meet the general friends, you recollect about what that events or the planned plans. We start to live "past" because in our relations already there is a history. For all this time, lives on the sly intertwine, somewhere supplementing each other, and somewhere replacing. We keep for this history because already in a head have generated the joint future because there are already those things which have got used to do in common because habits … were developed and fixed

People cannot tear with history of relations at once, continuing to live by inertia for this purpose what to disperse, long enough time piece which it is not estimated in days is necessary to them. To wean, start to live anew, to open eyes … all it does not occur instantly, time is necessary.

Other question consists what is at the person in a head at present who from a two continues to live already illusive relations which have settled itself and have been torn off? The one who has accepted “The End”, it has already started to wean and change the life who was not in time, continues to struggle already for "emptiness". Emptiness it terrible because in a head there is a thought what still to return it is possible and there is an image of "ideal" relations which ostensibly were earlier, but all business only in rich imagination. The life promptly flies by by … instead of accepted “The End”, do not notice, but once and at them eyes open and the understanding of comes that the life and without the significant other very much even is quite good. A question besides when time for this comprehension will come?

Like common truths, but nevertheless people over and over again attack the same rake though if diligently to bypass the rake scattered on a room, lose life experience a great lot.

P.S. By the way, about harm of computer games. Already a minimum of one steam on my memory because of game one more has run up also was close to rupture.

 

The happiness … Is such non-material substance which fills you precisely water an empty vessel. The happiness is when you can smile without the reason, share with others the good mood and start to go by the ground so, precisely your weight has fallen to weight easy перинки. You start to soar over the earth … one only force of good mood and in any way more. Physics and chemistry slide to hell, you are simply happy. Your private world becomes such warm, carefree and extensive … You a sponge which absorbs all surrounding positive without the rest.

The happiness is when it would not be desirable to write at all because to you it is so good, that you revel in each instant, and easier to spend laziness precious time for knock of keys and brain work. The happiness is when at you 95 % of a brain are disconnected, you do not see and you simply eternal do not hear about arising problems, light on positive moods.

Now, when it is necessary to force itself through force to write these lines, I come to conclusion, that such happy the woman and anybody can make the man only more. All these material benefits it is perfect other field a berry, all is only litmus wrapper of that is not thought up happiness. To feel near to itself the person necessary … unless it not to feel fine?

The happiness is a summer, heat, sunny days. Pick up any word for your taste and it is all the same confident, that the happiness 10 times will be above that it is possible to put into words. When you start to feel distinctly breath of a warm wind on a skin when in greens of trees you start to see new shades, understand, you are happy. You start to see the world in all its completeness and many-sided nature. The happiness for the man is when two different persons, become a single whole. To exist without the significant other begins it is problematic. To sleep at night and not to feel near by such warm and native body is a torture. Torture by loneliness but when there comes day, and you see this person again, you are ready to suffer long, very long, if only these pleasant instants proceeded as it is possible longer.

Happiness to iron on hair of the favourite person when he sleeps, to look at its such pacified lines, gently to concern with forehead lips, simultaneously wishing very strongly him to kiss and on too time, least wishing in these instants, that he would wake up. Even cynics during such instants in a shower become though for a second romanticists. Soul flight … a nirvana. These are too simple words what to express in the text all that is created in a shower, but at the same time there comes also a total pacification … It is possible to live simply emotions, very touchingly and in a kind way.

… the cleverest, that it is possible to make happiness, happiness, happiness, when you are happy, not to try to prolong at all it as it is possible longer, and to keep somewhere deeply in heart. To preserve and then to get, when it is heavy on a shower, to shake off a dust and to live on happy memoirs. It would be healthy …

 

I – root of all evil! Last months it is valid so. But! A root decided by someone's inflamed brains.

Let's tell, so not first time because of dialogue with a different sort ladies, both on the Internet, and in not it I face such problem. Young men of ladies, perceive me either as the opponent or as the enemy. The devil only knows why … Can from own uncertainty or from what forms are accepted by our dialogue. But! Besides not once or twice, faced that people still at all not representing who is who start to threaten through female hands or throwing mud. What for it it? Have imagined in the head незнамо that, and then would search in a reality of that person on whom under this all to sign. And I after all only also do, that I communicate also ANYTHING ELSE, it is simply interesting to me to communicate with versatile people. Anything from them it is not necessary, because all that is necessary for happiness at I rumple already is … and they do not understand.

Funny after all. Unfortunately to the, it was necessary even to stop with some people of dialogue, in order to avoid problems at them, instead of at me. Further, on the one hand from бойфрендов (were and the presents) I very fine understand some, worried in due time attacks of wild jealousy and even more, there was a moment such unpleasant in my life, it depends it seemed to me, I have seen the former girl with the new young man and nothing thinking left at the following stop. In full confidence, what today I славненько will be chopped. The head did not work, the purpose has been defined. Already lines it does not know that, but during that moment has occurred nothing. All happened, but comprehension of absurdity then has already come to that moment, I have given myself up as a bad job and was ready to be cut up to the end.

All people after all are identical, therefore, having tested such itself, I can assume such and at others. To guess their further sequence of actions begins interestingly, and begins “in it and I did, and then did here it …“. People who could surprise really me in general units. All is banal enough leaves usually.

1. Conversations.
2. Scandals.
3. Pity calling to itself.
4. Nonsenses.

Conversations, it when still try, something to tell to the person, to explain on good, but you will come across a misunderstanding wall because you have already deleted from a life. Then when in a head something clicks, you start to row … already know, that the person from you leaves, therefore you all its actions perceive through a prism “me want наебать”, in each action search подставу and the latent sense. You become pity … but do not understand it, lose the advantage rests. Become already deaf to councils of friends, inertly to them you listen, you nod a head, but you continue to do in own way. Further, because of scandals you all push away from yourself the person more strongly and more strongly. When your actions reach a critical point, you send on йух. You cannot stop and by inertia continue to "love" that image which was obligingly drawn to you by imagination, this image has a little the general with the validity, therefore in one fine day you speak to the person as they has changed. The person has not changed, is simple you in its heart already is not present. You by inertia move further and sooner or later those feelings which you tested to the person, are replaced with insult …

YOU of it do not see. Simply one concept substitutes another, and here you are offended and start to think out a way if not to revenge then … and that at least to revenge and return insult still early, therefore you try to return all … but is original enough. You start to do so, that to you would feel pity … tears, illnesses on which ostensibly to you on хуй, алкотреш, all what to cause to itself pity. All it what to return that of that already is not present. But! Besides in a head the ideal image and the person spins is not capable to realise, what even having returned thus, it will not receive those relations which so passionately wished. It will not be, that life, that has been cut already off by those scissors and those affairs which you have already done earlier. All event is a race from mountain on a trolley with dynamite. Ahead a precipice, and underfoot some tens kgs of good dynamite and when you will fall in it, can and so полыхнуть …. Уууууу

At and here there is it полыхнет. A wave of self-destruction and total nonsense. But the person is not that, at first it should designate the acts, write the letter, give last gift, last call or смску. We will tell so, for myself to put end … to imagine for myself, that without this person the life is impossible and to do nonsenses. Nonsenses different happen, for example, it is possible to leave in army (there are such living examples), to impose on itself hands (and such is, thank God to leave a life at them it has not turned out), to decide to change the life in a negative side any accessible by, what to show the “on хую” and to accuse object of the adoration guilty of all event. Yes, and to forget to confess to yourself that in all you are guilty ….и anybody more.

All is subjects of predicted human nature when in critical situations it operates extremely monotonously and predictedly. Besides in a life saw only several who has surprised and did not get under the scheme.

But as a matter of fact about a theme, children fondly to consider, that I Root of all evil (though to some extent to me it потрафило) a problem in you, that you do and with what are ready to be reconciled.